Back on track with my posts.
I did this Gateway Tape yesterday and today. This tape is a "Free Flow" exercise. You are basically setting yourself up to get yourself to Focus 10 and then the goal is to get whatever you personally need to out of the exercise. This one always seems to be more self reflecting for me. At one point I was asking myself, "why am I doing this?" I found that at this point in my life I'm mainly doing a lot of self reflection, and I'm just trying to figure out how to make the easier parts of life that appear to be complicated easy again.
I feel like as people we tend to make simple things complicated, and we need to stop overcomplicating life. This has actually been my approach in Jiu-Jitsu lately and it has really elevated my game and how I approach things. I have been catching people in the most ridiculously simple submissions lately. I only use the word "simple" because I'm taking a much more simple way of looking at fighting and submissions. This point of view is something I've been sharing with my students and it seems to be working for them as well.
OK, back to the meditation. I did my meditation sitting on my meditation bench this morning. I felt like I was too sleepy to lay down and not fall asleep after getting up at 4:30am, teaching a Jiu Jitsu class at 5:00am, and then working out. I did my meditation on my meditation bench around 8:00am this morning.
I feel like I'm getting better at relaxing in a seated position than I use to be. I can finally get my body to relax on the bench and get more out of the exercise.
Today was interesting. One of the things I really wanted to get out of the exercise was getting my body to the Focus 10 sleep state while keeping my conscience fully awake. I was able to get to that state in a seated position, and this is something I usually have a hard time doing. At one point I couldn't really feel my body. It was kind of like when your foot falls asleep and you stand on it. You can see your foot, but you can't really feel it and it's very hard to walk on. While I was sitting there trying my best to just let my mind go, and at the same time stay in the moment, I realized that I couldn't feel my arms and my hands. I had no idea what position my hands were in. I didn't know if they were folded, resting on my knees, or anywhere else. Then I tried to focus on them without opening my eyes to visually check on them, but I had no idea what position they were in,.. and I became totally fine and fascinated with that idea. I just was such a relaxed state that I couldn't physically feel anything.
The meditation felt like it was going on for hours. At one point I wondered if I had fallen asleep and missed work. I decided that I would just wait it out, and eventually the tape came to an end, I opened my eyes, and then stood up.
I really enjoyed the mindfulness aspect of this exercise. It really allowed me to dig deep on some of my inner thoughts.
Tomorrow I'll only have time for a short 15 min meditation before work, so I will have to wait until Sunday to do the next tape. I have a couple apps that I like to use for meditation. One is an app from the Monroe Institute called Expand. It has a lot of different meditations and I believe most of them use Hemi-Sync platform and utilize stereo headphones.
until next time...
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